Life is worth living

  Hope you enjoy the read! : ) Sorry if the last post was glitched for you. I don’t really know what happened there but I fixed it now. For the last months, years perhaps, I’ve been thinking that my life is pretty boring. That everything I do is on repeat and that I’ve got to do all those things to get where I want to be yada yada yada. I might have even had depersonalization… Maybe I still do a bit. But today, I’ve noticed that my life actually is full of things that would make me, or.. My brain engaged. It is only that I’ve gotten used to doing those things on automatic, I didn’t even really need a brain to process the actions I had to do. Maybe I was still doing my best even on automatic, but the problem was more that I am always so disconnected mentally, that my brain just gets bored and hangs on the past, hangs on things that ended months ago, and that’s REALLY annoying you got no idea. Maybe you do idk. Anyway, the reason I’m saying this is because I’m pretty sure there will ...

Hope you enjoy the read! : ) If you’re wondering how I manage to think of things to write here, I literally just sit for about a minute and just write the first interesting thought that comes to mind. A while back, I faced myself with the question:  “When does it stop?” I wasn’t referring to when does the emotions stop, when does peace finally arrive no no no no no, I meant when will I be satisfied with all I achieved? When do I stop striving for more?  I imagine you might be a bit confused by that, but let me explain. A few days ago, at night time, I didn’t have work to do, I already did everything I had to, but I still wanted more, I wanted to go further, to work more, to be even greater. So I started thinking of another big skill that I could learn so that MR TAYRONE gets even better. It had to be something that I could do by myself, alone, and all it took was determination.  Learning a new language came to mind. Another one. I already speak 3 languages, Portuguese, En...

  Hope you enjoy the read! : ) Yesterday night I had a realization that made everything in life so much simpler and easier to enjoy. I believe I talked about something similar here before, but maybe how I thought about it yesterday made things better. That’s why I like writing here so much : ) I get to organize my thoughts in proper words and some people might really get inspired by it. Basically my realization was that not every phase of your life needs to be incredible regarding how happy you’re. Everyone is only looking to be happy when they’re not content, as when you’re going through a good phase, you don’t even think about your feelings that much. But here’s what I thought was interesting. Nothing lasts forever, that’s obvious, so the good phases won’t either. Maybe what makes them so special IS the fact that they won’t last forever. They’re limited, at least the feeling of the good phase, and after they’re done or you just get used to it, things feel like they go back to nor...

  Hope you enjoy the read! : ) I’m not sure how I should start this post. It’s more of a personal thing that might, idk, inspire some people. Today was a really interesting day. And I realized that I might be addicted to the feeling of being unstoppable regarding doing “hard things”. A few hours ago I went through the mental process of accepting that someone you cared for dearly doesn’t care that much about you. So that I don’t get emotionally drained during the days anymore, I had to basically just let that person go, and let go of my care for them. It sucked. It was like an explosion of feelings. It was hard.  But after a while of feeling this way, I suddenly got a high so high that it felt like… I don’t want to say drugs… It was like I just scored the winning goal at the end of the match. I believe that happened once I realized how uncomfortable it was feeling all that, how hard it was, and I still did it. Then I remembered other things during the day that sucked and really...

  Hope you enjoy the read! : ) Today is, I’d say, one of the most important days of my life. Why is that? Because I’ve finally got to the mental stage I was looking for for years. I won’t get really deep into that, but god does it feel weird. And going through that made me figure out what I wanted to talk about today.  If we are going through a bad moment, a bad phase in life, we need to know that to get out, you need to get yourself together. It ain’t easy work. It’s really uncomfortable. But you got to do something. Yeah yeah yeah, you might have heard that before, the real question is mostly how do we get ourselves together, and I think I’ve figured that out : ) In my case, I kept this awful feeling of grief alive for what felt like ages even though it should have been gone months ago, I knew it was supposed to be gone. What kept it alive was me never stopping to actually feel it, because I was always working, and when I did allow myself to feel it, it always came back bec...

  Hope you enjoy the read! : ) The fun about writing a blog with daily posts is that I can just write stuff that I thought about throughout the day, and I also feel like I’ll get better at talking to people, which I believe I was already good at but still. Seriously, you might want to start your own blog. Anyway, today I thought about the question: “How do you want people to feel when you’re gone?” And I believe many people would say that they want them to miss them. Yeah, we want to be missed. But why exactly? (Not even I know where this is going) I mean… People missing you means that you were important to those people. But if people miss you, they’re sad right? If they miss you, they want you back. So they’re sad that you’re gone.  And we WANT those people to be sad once we’re gone? We want the people that are close to us to be hurt? Or do we want them to miss us because we want to feel important? This sounds weird but I hope you understand where this thought is coming from....