Eventually. It's greed and pride

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If you’re wondering how I manage to think of things to write here, I literally just sit for about a minute and just write the first interesting thought that comes to mind.



A while back, I faced myself with the question: 

“When does it stop?”

I wasn’t referring to when does the emotions stop, when does peace finally arrive no no no no no, I meant when will I be satisfied with all I achieved? When do I stop striving for more? 

I imagine you might be a bit confused by that, but let me explain.



A few days ago, at night time, I didn’t have work to do, I already did everything I had to, but I still wanted more, I wanted to go further, to work more, to be even greater. So I started thinking of another big skill that I could learn so that MR TAYRONE gets even better. It had to be something that I could do by myself, alone, and all it took was determination. 

Learning a new language came to mind. Another one. I already speak 3 languages, Portuguese, English and German. German I decided to learn because I thought knowing 3 languages is obviously better than only two. It makes me better than those who only speak two, right?

And then I was there, thinking that knowing 4 languages would make me even better. Ok ok. Cool. Doesn’t sound absurd. But when does it stop? I don’t mean that I struggle with studying languages. That’s not the problem. The problem is when does wanting more and more become greed? Once I learn a 4º language, which I might actually one day, won’t there be a moment in the future that I think learning another one would make me even better? When will this end? Why am I even doing this?

I guess I wanted to learn German because I wanted to feel superior to those who only spoke 2. But I believe now I was wrong in my way of thinking. I questioned myself if I now feel any better than anyone, and the answer was… No, I feel normal. Knowing all the things that I know, being all the things that I am, I don’t feel better. I don’t think I’m better. 

That's when I realized that, for as corny as it sounds, no one is better. 

Wanting more isn’t bad. 

It’s just that it felt dirty of me to want more and more and more and more and more and more. I felt greedy. I don’t know. Prideful? It reminds me of that song “Biggering”, which is really good, you should listen to it. 

I’m not sure what to do then. If anyone has any advice, talk to me on Discord : )



That’s it for today. I really enjoy just talking here and sometimes not even giving real life lessons, just saying stuff that people might relate to.

See you tomorrow! 



Ah, and here’s the song Biggering if you’d like to listen to it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpgUQYARIsw




 

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